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         If you know me you would know that I would refuse to use the words I can't. Unless I tried my best at doing something but still couldn't do it. Even then I can be stubborn and not ask for help. Well an accident happened to me last week 5/18/14 which required me to use those words a lot. You see I don't know what happened first hand.  All I remember is being at home that day then waking up thinking I was dreaming of being in the ER. In a lot of pain and saying my wrist my wrist it hurts. As well as saying my head. I was on those wooden boards they use with a neck brace. I truly thought I was dreaming. As I was coming out of it I vaguely remember the cop asking to take pictures and doctors near me trying to figure out what happened. Every time they asked my answer would be the same. I don't know.

          So what they are saying happened was someone found me by my bike and called 911. I was wearing a helmet. I was unresponsive the whole time until I was in the er. I don't know how long I was unresponsive in the ER as well. I'm still trying to make sense of it all. So please bare with me.  They even cut my tops off. I had a long sleeve shirt on with my biking shirt. I guess it was pretty cold out that day. I don't even remember getting ready either. I don't know when they did that cause I was already in a hospital gown when I was coming to reality (so to speak). They also already had an IV hooked up to my arm. As well as my wrist secured with a little board thing and gauze wrapped around it. To keep it immobile. They kept me in the hospital for almost four days. 

          Some lessons I learned while there and still learning during this healing process. So a few weeks ago I bought 2 biking shirts that I normally won't buy because they are pricey. One had sleeves and one was sleeveless. Before the accident I was thinking more towards taking the sleeveless one back. Just because I kept thinking ah I'll never really wear it out in public. It was more for my comfort zone so to speak. I just didn't want to deal with other peoples reactions and stares more then I need to. I really don't like to be the center of attention. So while in the hospital all those feelings went out the window. People saw everything. I needed help with everything because my hand and wrist was not in good shape. As they saw I didn't feel the way I would if I were in public. I was actually content and was like well it is what it is. I was at peace. He made me the way I am for a reason. During that stay in the hospital for almost 4 days. He was teaching me that it was me making a big deal about looking for people's reactions. Searching their faces to see how they would react. Most of the time it wasn't a good reaction. :( I hated it but getting better with all the staring. It would drive me nuts. I think I would rather have them ask questions then just stare at me weird. But back to what was being typed. I'm not on this earth to please man but to glorify God and to fulfill His purpose He has for my life. 

          The second lesson was my plans vs His plans. My plan was to drive 14 hours to a friends house to spend the week with them. I was going to do it during the day so no night driving will be required while I was heading that way. As time got closer some family and friends were getting nervous and worried about me. Of course me being me reassured them that I'll be okay.....that didn't work. I did start looking into other ways of getting there just to compare pricing and to easy their minds. In my head though I was set on driving. One of my friends even offered to get me a plane ticket to go out there. But I was pretty much stubborn (in a nice way) cause I was so sure I'll be driving. I was looking forward to it. I had remade my playlist so it will play for 14 hours without me needing to mess with it. I even got multiple maps and directions just in case my gps died. So after the hospital stay and few days off. I decided to go help one of my friends because I needed to get out and I truly missed them. I was not cleared to drive by the doctor and my mom due to my wrist and hand so she drove me. I am grateful she made that call. I'll tell you why in a little bit. So fast forward to later that day. We were outside and I was called in. I was told that they truly want to use their miles on my plane tickets. I couldn't refuse anymore. :) There are no words that I can use to say how grateful and blessed I am to have them in my life. 

          I then decide that I'll just rent a car while I'm at my friends house for that week. So I booked it. Little did I know God had other plans for that as well. I got a call from my friend after I booked it. When I mentioned that I'll be renting a car when I get off the plane that day. She pretty much told me I don't need to do that they wanted to pick me up. Then the next day since the little one had so much changing in his life that week. Like school ending, me leaving for a week, me getting hurt and my mom driving us. He was very nice about it and asked me if I can drive. I was still in pain and probably should not have but he is a very laid back kid. So when he was voicing what he truly wanted I decided to try for him. Now that made his day! The next day felt like day one all over again. My mom had to do everything for me again. If I had a chance to do it over again I will choose to drive again because at that time that's what the little one needed. All in all driving was not the plan.. My uncle ended up picking me up.. So that was a bonus. I haven't seen him in awhile and I spent the day with him and the family. 

          So I still don't know what truly happened that day only what they are telling me. I recently started using this app called mapmyride. As I was in the hospital I went to the app because I use it every time I ride my bike. It was also driving me bananas not knowing what happened. Well according to that app I was on a bike ride for 47 or so minutes and I rode almost 9 miles. It would not let me see where though. I think I was probably out seeing if I can ride that long because my dad's home church was about 9 miles from my place. On a Sunday they were having a bike to church event. So I'm assuming I wanted to see if I would be able to do it. When I got on the computer it did show me where I was and how fast I was going. No memories though. I even went to the maps on google to see if I can see the location and have a memory. I got no where with that.. :( oh well 

          On 6/2/14 I had a follow-up appointment. So come to find out it probably was not a sprain after all. The doctor is now saying it may have been a small fracture that turned into callus. I was a little frustrated when he told me that. Mainly because there was some talk (while I was hospitalized)  about putting a cast on my hand/wrist but he really did not want to do that. I believe its more because I have one then because I didn't need one.  So needless to say the doctor said I need to hold off on driving. He is also going to send me to a specialist to see if it will be wise to get another X-ray done to see why my forearm and wrist is still in pain. I am very grateful its not broken though. Got another follow-up in a few weeks. Hopefully by then I'll be able to get back on the bike. As well as drive.



To be Continued……


Update: 

So from the MRI there was a small fracture in my wrist.. :( I was given a splint to wear 24/7. It helped most of the time.

      So its been almost 6 months after the accident. I still don't remember anything from that day. I'm happy to say that my wrist is much better. Still healing and some pain but better. I am currently waiting for insurance to approve the arm splint i need to wear at night. As soon as thats done I would need to wear it every night for about 4-6 weeks. Just to see if that will help with the numbness and tingling i been getting in my fingers. If that doesn't work they are going to do surgery to fix the problem.

Yesterday I was finally approved for the brace for my arm. So far I hate it. Not because I have to wear it but because it is so hard to put on properly on my own. :( I'm hoping it will work so I won't need surgery.

Me

The Accident and Aftermath

If you know me you would know that I would refuse to use the words I can't. Unless I tried my best at doing something but still couldn't do it. Well an accident happened to me last week 5/15/14 which required me to use those words a lot. You see I don't know what happened first hand.  All I remember is being at home that day then waking up in the ER. In a lot of pain and saying my wrist my wrist it hurts. As well as saying my head. I was on those wooden boards they use with a neck brace. I truly thought I was dreaming. As I was coming out of it I vaguely remember the cop asking to take pictures and doctors near me trying to figure out what happened. Every time they asked my answer would be the same. 

So what they are saying happened was someone found me by my bike and called 911. I was wearing a helmet. I was unresponsive the whole time until I was in the er. I don't know how long I was unresponsive in the ER as well. I'm still trying to make sense of it all. So please bare with me.  They even cut my tops off. I had a long sleeve shirt on with my biking shirt. I guess it was pretty cold out that day. I don't even remember getting ready either. I don't know when they did that cause I was already in a hospital gown when I was coming to reality (so to speak). They also already had an IV hooked up to my arm. As well as my wrist secured with a lil board thing and gauze wrapped around it. To keep it immobile. They kept me in the hospital for almost four days. 

Some lessons I learned while there and still learning during this healing process. So a few weeks ago I bought 2 biking shirts that I normally won't buy because they are pricey. One had sleeves and one was sleeveless. Before the accident I was thinking more towards taking the sleeveless one back. Just because I kept thinking ah I'll never really wear it out in public. It was more for my comfort zone so to speak. I just didn't want to tell with other peoples reactions and stares more then I need to. I really don't like to be the center of attention. So while in the hospital all those feeling went out the window. People saw everything. I needed help with everything because my hand and wrist was not in good shape. As they saw I didn't feel the was I would if I were in public. I was actually content and was like well it is what it is. He made me the way I am for a reason. During that stay in the hospital for almost 4 days. He was teaching me that it was me making a big deal about looking for people's reactions. Searching their faces to see how they would react. Most of the time it wasn't a good reaction. :( I hated but getting better with all the staring. It would drive me nuts. I think I would rather have them ask questions then just stare at me weird. But back to what was being typed. I'm not on this earth to please man but to glorify God and to fulfill His purpose He has for my life. 

The second lesson was my plans vs His plans. My plan was to drive 14 hours to a friends house to spend the week with them. I was going to do it during the day so no night driving will be required while I was heading that way. As time got closer some family and friends were getting nervous and worried about me. Of course me being me reassured them that I'll be okay.....that didn't work. I did start looking into other ways of getting there just to compare pricing and to easy their minds. In my head though I was set on driving. One of my families I help out even offered to get me a plane ticket to go out there. But I was pretty much stubborn (in a nice way) cause I was so sure I'll be driving. I was looking toward to it. I had remade my playlist so it will play for 14 hours with out me needing to mess with it. I even got multiple maps and directions just in case my gps died. So after the hospital stay and few days off. I decided to go help one of my families out like I normally do because I needed to get out and I truly missed them. I was not cleared to drive by my mom due to my wrist and hand so she drove me. I am grateful she made that call. I'll tell you why in a little bit. So fast forward to later that day. The kids and I were outside and I was called in. I was told that they truly want to use their miles on my plane ticket. I couldn't refuse anymore. :) There are no words that I can use to say how grateful and blessed I am to have them in my life. They ARE my second family.

I then decide that I'll just rent a car while I'm at my friends house for that week. So I booked it. Little did I know God had other plans for that as well. I got a call from my friend after I booked it. When I mentioned that I'll be renting a car when I get off the plane that day. She pretty much told me I don't need to do that they wanted to pick me up. Then the next day since the little one had so much changing in his life that week. Like school ending, me leaving for a week, me getting hurt and my mom driving us. He was very nice about it and asked me if I can drive. I was still in pain and probably should not have but he is a very laid back kid. So when he was voicing what he truly wanted I decided to try for him. Now that made his day! The next day felt like day one all over again. My mom had to do everything for me again. If I had a chance to do it over again I will choose to drive again because at that time that's what the little one needed. All in all driving was not the plan.. My uncle ended up picking me up.. So that was a bonus. I haven't seen him in awhile and I spent the day with him and the family. 

So I still don't know what truly happened that day only what their telling me. I recently started using this app called mapmyride. As I was in the hospital I went to the app because I use it every time I workout. Well according to that app I was on a bike ride for 47 or so minutes and I rode almost 9 miles. It would not let me see where though. I think I was probably out seeing if I can ride that long because my dad's home church was about 9 miles from my place. On a Sunday they were having a bike to church event. So I'm assuming I wanted to see if I would be able to do it. When I got on the computer it did show me where I was and how fast I was going. No memories though. I even when to the maps on google to see if I can see the location and have a memory. I got no where with that.. :( oh well 

On 6/2/14 I had a follow-up appointment. So come to find out it probably was not a sprain after all. The doctor is now saying it may have been a small fracture that turned into callus. So needless to say the doctor said I need to hold off on driving. He is also going to send me to a specialist to see if it will be wise to get another X-ray done to see why my forearm and wrist is still in pain. I am very grateful its not broken though. Got another follow-up in a few weeks. Hopefully by then I'll be able to get back on the bike. As well as drive.



~Me