So I came to realize a few things about myself from an event I was at a few weeks ago. You see not only do I let my pride get in the way sometimes when its time to let others help out. Its also because of others why I don't ask for help. I'm NOT by all means blaming anybody for my actions but they do play a part in it. You see a few weeks ago I realized I needed help with something and I did ask for help. (which I only do if I really really need it) Well you would think someone will be like sure I'll help. Needless to say that was not the case this time. :-/ This person told me that they can't because "I'm off duty." You probably can imagine what was going on in my head. Someone else was there and thank God for this person because they knew what I was feeling and could see the frustration I was feeling. So they without hesitation helped me out.

Sometimes I just wish that those close to me will understand that I am limited to doing some stuff on my own. I know that they feel like I'm some kind of super women that can do anything and everything. But thats just not the case.....I wish it was but thats just not possible. The only person that can do everything was Christ Himself according to the calling He had while He was on this earth.

You see I'm not one to ask for help just to be lazy. I ask for help because I really need it. When I do ask for it around those close to me some of them would always give me negative response and it sucks. It really hurts me although I may not show it but it really does. Its like feeling you can count on someone but in reality their nowhere to be found when you need them the most. This blog is not for people to feel sorry for me its to just get a feel of what I'm going through and how I feel about it. As well to understand how I view the world through my eyes.